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By: cathy

cathy — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 01:53:23 +0000

It really is hard because people can give you support, but really unless they’ve had a miscarriage, they truly can’t understand the emotional turmoil that you’re going through. Gosh. It’ll be a month today and its still really hard. I still get bouts of melancholy. It was so hard going through my calendar and erasing all the weeks. This morning I noticed that I hadn’t erased when I would have started my third trimester and I start to get sad all over again.
For a while I would still rub my belly and talk to it a little, thinking that the baby was still there.
Now I just get mad because I know that there are so many women out there who are pregnant and don’t want to be or who have kids and treat them rotten, and I would make my baby feel so very special. This is the second miscarriage and all I want is one more baby and then we’ll be done. I don’t need a truckload of children. One more will do.
At least I have Jack. If I can’t have anymore, I can just smother him with hugs. It has made this so much easier to get through. I can’t dwell on it because I have to be strong for Jack. Even trying to do that, he’s still noticed and he’s been really possessive of me the past few weeks.
That’s what I’ve been thinking myself these past weeks. Why? Why me? Why did this have to happen? It would make it a little easier if there was an explanation, but there’s nothing. “Sometimes these things happen.” was all they answered. Big help that is… all you can do is try to move on and try again. You have to realize that it was nothing that you did and nothing you could have done to prevent it. That’s the hardest thing in the world, but you have to do it, otherwise it will tear you apart.
If you need someone to talk to privately, let me know.
I’ll be thinking of you.
Good luck.

By: Glenda Saenz

Glenda Saenz — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 00:13:14 +0000

I just read your story and of course I’m in tears. I just experienced the same thing on Wed. June 25th, 2008. This was my first pregnancy ever and I had just found out a week before, that I’d be having a baby boy. My family and my boyfriend have been very supportive, but I’m still suffering emotionally. This is the most tragic event in my life that I’ve ever experienced and sometimes I still can’t believe that this is happening and that there’s no longer a baby in my tummy. Why???

By: adrienne

adrienne — Sat, 31 May 2008 15:44:48 +0000

Cathy, It’s okay to cry–this is unspeakably sad. You don’t deserve this kind of sadness. I’m so sorry. I’m sending you hugs.

By: Pat

Pat — Sat, 31 May 2008 02:16:20 +0000

Oh Cathy…I am so, so sorry to hear this news. I wish there was something I could do but all I can say is I know where you are at and I’m here if you need to vent, cry or just need a cyberhug. Take care of yourself and I will be saying extra prayers for you and your guys. Love ya