Archive for December 2nd, 2006

Blah blah its 12:30 am and I’m old. ack. Time to go to bed.

Saturday, December 2nd, 2006

I occasionally get the chance to wander around other people’s blogs, besides Mindless Rants on Life, WATAT and Momchops, of which I regularly stomp through. I had a chance to stomp through Ottoman Empire three.0.

I’ve also created a new blog… yea yea, I know. Shut up about it. It’s called I don’t know the title, but its got a blue cover (or blue cover for short)

She requested that I (although all I’ve done is post the songs, not actually do much crossing out):

Go to www.popCulturemadness.com and select the year you became 18. Paste the list of the top 75 songs. Bold the ones you liked; strike the ones you disliked; and italicize the ones you know but don’t exactly like nor dislike. The ones you don’t know will stay common text.

1. Barbie Girl – Aqua
2. ESPN Presents Jock Jams – Various Artists
3. Wannabe – Spice Girls
4. Tubthumping – Chumbawamba
5. To The Moon and Back – Savage Garden
6. You Make Me Wanna – Usher
7. I Like It Like That – Blackout All-Stars
8. Hard To Say I’m Sorry – Az Yet
9. Crash Into Me – Dave Matthews Band
10. Fly – Sugar Ray
11. How Do I Live – LeAnn Rimes
12. Da’ Dip – Freak Nasty
13. It’s Your Love – Tim McGraw & Faith Hill
14. Let Me Clear My Throat – DJ Kool
15. Missing You – Puff Daddy & Faith Evans
16. 2 Become 1 – Spice Girls
17. MMMBop – Hanson
18. Fly Like An Eagle – Seal
19. Say You’ll Be There – Spice Girls
20. For You I Will – Monica
21. Butterfly Kisses – Bob Carlisle
22. I Believe In You And Me – Whitney Houston
23. This Is Your Night – Amber
24. A Long December – Counting Crows
25. Show Me Love – Robyn
26. We Trying To Stay Alive – Wyclef Jean
27. Semi Charmed Life – Third Eye Blind
28. Mo Money Mo Problems – Notorious B.I.G.
29. Say… If You Feel Alright – Crystal Waters
30. The Impression That I Get – Mighty Mighty Bosstones
31. I Want You – Savage Garden
32. Song 2 – Blur
33. CoCo Jamboo – Mr. President
34. Love Rollercoaster – Red Hot Chili Peppers
35. Head Over Heels – Allure
36. All Mixed Up – 311
37. Can’t Nobody Hold Me Down – Puff Daddy
38. Honey – Mariah Carey
39. Spice Up Your Life – Spice Girls
40. Ooh Aah… Just a Little Bit – Gina G
41. Dancehall Queen – Beenie Man
42. Building A Mystery – Sarah McLachlan
43. I Say A Little Prayer – Diana King
44. Santeria – Sublime
45. Barely Breathing – Duncan Sheik
46. Men In Black – Will Smith
47. Wrong Way – Sublime
48. Criminal – Fiona Apple
49. Where’s The Love – Hanson
50. Your Woman – White Town
51. You Were Meant For Me – Jewel
52. Firestarter – Prodigy
53. Feel So Good – Mase
54. Where Have All The Cowboys Gone – Paula Cole
55. If It Makes You Happy – Sheryl Crow
56. Don’t Go Away – Oasis
57. Staring At The Sun – U2
58. Lovefool – The Cardigans
59. Blood On The Dancefloor – Michael Jackson
60. Thirty Three – Smashing Pumpkins
61. Secret Garden – Bruce Springsteen
62. Desperately Wanting – Better Than Ezra
63. How Bizarre – OMC
64. I’m Not A Player – Big Punisher
65. Quit Playin’ Games (With My Heart) – Backstreet Boys
66. Daylight Fading – Counting Crows
67. All Cried Out – Allure
68. Dream – Forest For The Trees
69. Push – Matchbox 20
70. Alright – Jamiroquai
71. The Freshmen – The Verve Pipe
72. The Rascal King – The Mighty Mighty Bosstones
73. The Old Apartment – Barenaked Ladies
74. Hell – Squirrel Nut Zippers
75. All By Myself – Celine Dion

More seizure research

Saturday, December 2nd, 2006

I’ve been doing a tiny bit more research about seizures, because:

  1. I want to get pregnant again
  2. Its been really really hard, no matter how much we work at it
  3. My cycles have been really strange and sporadic
  4. I’m worried that the drugs might harm the baby
  5. My mom told me that once my dad was seizure free after a couple years, he was allowed to go off the medicine, but for some reason I thought the doctor said I had to be on it forever

As I was looking it up on the Internet, mostly at the National Institute of Neurological Disorders. I found out that my seizure auras were actually mini seizures. Jeff tells me that the doctor told me about this at her office, but I think the whole thing is still sometimes a shock to me. Knowing that, I’ve actually had AT LEAST eight seizures, which includes all the auras and the grand mal seizure.

An aura seizure:
Some people with focal seizures, especially complex focal seizures, may experience auras — unusual sensations that warn of an impending seizure. These auras are actually simple focal seizures in which the person maintains consciousness. The symptoms an individual person has, and the progression of those symptoms, tend to be stereotyped, or similar every time.

The symptoms of focal seizures can easily be confused with other disorders. For instance, the dreamlike perceptions associated with a complex focal seizure may be misdiagnosed as migraine headaches, which also may cause a dreamlike state. The strange behavior and sensations caused by focal seizures also can be is taken for symptoms of narcolepsy, fainting, or even mental illness. It may take many tests and careful monitoring by an experienced physician to tell the difference between epilepsy and other disorders.

Reading this and actually having it are two very different things. The auras made me feeling like I was reliving a dream I had, but I would get really dizzy and have the shivers at the same time. I’d had these at really strange times. I remember one had come while I was serving pizza at the summer reading party in 2005. Poor me, I had no idea what was happening. Luckily, the auras weren’t usually obvious to anyone but me, so I was the only one who was scared.

The thing that kills me is that I had no idea what was happening to me, no one talks to you about seizures. They tell you all about depression, mood disorders, heart attacks, Parkinson’s disease, but not about seizures. According to the site, there are “More than 2 million people in the United States — about 1 in 100 — have experienced an unprovoked seizure or been diagnosed with epilepsy.” Somehow I think that may warrant more information being made available to people about seizures. If I had any idea that the dizzy spells that I was having were actually mini seizures leading up to my grand mal, I may have been much more actively trying to go to the doctor, instead of waiting until my big seizure sent me to the emergency department.

Grand mal seizures (aka, tonic-clonic seizures) are:

seizures that cause a mixture of symptoms, including loss of consciousness, stiffening of the body, and repeated jerks of the arms and legs. In the past these seizures were sometimes referred to as grand mal seizures.
I don’t remember any of that happening, but Jeff said that it scared the shit out of him.
I don’t really know where I was trying to go with this post, but I’ve been trying to get pregnant and I’m slightly afraid that the drugs are preventing me, and may harm the baby, since the drug I’m taking is relatively new, and doctors don’t think there will be any harm to the baby, but even so there’s a registry learn more information about the relative safety of specific antiepileptic drugs (AEDs) during pregnancy.
I’ve sort of lost my train of thought, and now I’m sad thinking about all of this, so I’m going to take my Lamictal and go to sleep… I love that the medicine I’m taking is also for bipolar disorder. Yummy in my tummy.