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Boo Hoo my sister is almost 21

Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005

I just found out my little sis updated her website (click on the title to check it out)… That’s more than I can say for my website, which has pretty much died. I think it says that I still attend Geneseo (which I graduated from in 1999) Eeek. This is pathetic. Anyway, my sister’s got a cute website that mentions that her big sister’s first baby is due on March 27th…

Speaking of which, I have quite a lot to tell you about the little guy. I had a horrible cold and took Sudafed, which dried me out. I had an ultrasound because Jack was breech. Luckily by the time we had the ultrasound he had turned. Unfortunately, my amniotic fluid levels were really low, so I had to take a non-stress test, which came out okay. The doctor didn’t want to take any chances though, so I was put on bed rest. Not being able to do anything but lie on the couch and go to the bathroom gets boring really quickly, but I did it. I had to do weekly non-strees tests, and I had to have another ultrasound. My husband says that he looks like an Easter Island statue. So what do you think? I know, I know it’s that one eyeball staring right at you. Kinda freaky, but it’s still my little guy.

Little Jack looking at his mom…
Link: http://www.geneseo.edu/~slh8/

fears

Thursday, January 20th, 2005

(oh my god. My cat just puked on my papasan chair. It makes me so ill. I hate her so much. oh great, now the dog just ate some of it. blek.)

People keep trying to remind me that women have been giving birth for thousands of years, and that due to all the leaps in medical technology women don’t need to “suffer” anymore. But I still don’t know what to expect. Lots of women have told me, don’t worry about it 20 minutes and you’ll have a baby. Unfortunately, I spoke to my mom, and she said that labor was really long and intense. Great. Thanks a lot mom and grandma. Luckily my mom is going to be in the delivery room, so I’ll be able to yell at her a lot (instead of my husband, who will stil be there, but I won’t have to yell at him. Well as much.) I vaguely remember my mom being in labor with my youngest sister. She was pacing back and forth and my dad was timing her contractions. I’m guessing it will be a couple hours of pain, with bones breaking and things spreading apart and lots of crying.

I’m also petrified of the epidural. Needles in the back, unable to feel my lower body and having a catheter in the back and the possibility of back problems after birth are pretty discouraging. Plus I looked up information on epidurals, and came across this faq. I’ve been trying (although not so hard recently) to educate myself, but maybe it would be better if I didn’t know anything. Ergh! I really don’t know if I want an epidural (well I know I don’t want an epidural), but I don’t want to have to go through all the pain either. The things we do to ensure that we are remembered when we die, and so that our family line is carried on. Stupid.

I think a little bit of me is scared of being responcible for another life (we have a dog and two cats, but I don’t think they expect very much, and as long as we don’t beat them, they probably won’t be traumatized) and it will be a small defenseless life at that. I’ve been wanting to say that yes, I am ready, but some part of me doesn’t really believe it. I want my child to be well rounded and a good citizen, but it’ll mean I have to be so dedicated and conscious of everything that happens to him. It sounds like a lot of work! But I guess that when its your own child you’re talking about, maybe it doesn’t always seem like work. Who knows. I sure as hell don’t. At least I’ll make sure that he reads. I guess thats part of the package when your mom’s a children’s librarian. You have to read.

Summer reading… in January?

Monday, January 19th, 2004
In New York the summer reading program (I know, I know its not even February yet and I’m thinking of the summer reading program, but I need something to look forward to :>) is READ WHITE AND BLUE and I thought it would be cute to have a travel around America theme. However instead of going to typical places like the grand canyon or the Washington monument, I’m going to have the kids go to weird places… Like the world’s biggest ball of twine, or the toilet seat museum or the spam museum or the biggest pecan. I had the librarians at PUBYAC give me suggestions and it got pretty crazy. Even so, the more I think about it, the more I love it! I was going to have a big map of USA and have pictures of each location. The kids would all get a paper care and for how long they read they would get to go a certain amount around the map. Maybe for the kids that couldn’t read as well or didn’t have time, I could have a gas station picture for those that “ran out of gas” and they could draw a picture of something weird, write a poem, or find a piece of information I asked them about in an encyclopedia. I would give them prizes like big pencils or postcards, and at the end maybe we would have a drawing to go somewhere weird around Rochester (like the Jello Museum in LeRoy). I love it!On a different note, I started practicing yoga again, after a huge break… I think its been a year. I want to release all the work related (aka child-related) stress that I’ve been having, plus I want to be more flexible, because I heard that yoga helps with child-bearing. I find it very amusing that in one breath I can say how stress inducing the kids at the library are, but I still want my own. Perplexing.

Christmas in Stitches – Literally

Thursday, January 1st, 2004

Hi again. I just thought I’d talk a little about my Christmas… It sucked! I passed out on the kitchen floor Christmas Eve, and cut my face up under my cheek. My husband and I had to go to the emergency room and I needed to get seven stitches. They put me on an IV and I received two whole bags of fluid. Yummy yummy. Everyone who came in thought maybe I might be pregnant, but no such luck. We finally got home around 11 pm and had to finish wrapping Christmas presents, so we went to sleep around 2:30 am.
Luckily the rest of the Christmas was uneventful, but tiring.