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2003 December | Cathy the Librarian

Archive for December, 2003

lists and lists and still I can’t remember

Friday, December 12th, 2003
I have begun to make lists
things to do
groceries
names
dates
what I ate for dinner
everything
before it spills out
of my head
and disappears forever
I am too young
to lose my head
there shouldn’t be
enough in it
to disappear forever
I want to keep
my first kiss
my 21st birthday
my first hangover
my wedding day
I don’t just want lists
that remind me
I had fun
I got sick
I was happy
I need to remember
who I am
why I am here
why I shouldn’t disappear
Its just too hard
to stay clear
to remember
who I am
and why

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waste matter memories

Thursday, December 11th, 2003
I can no longer
remember
things
such as
washing my hair
locking the door
brushing my teeth
hugging my dog
my head is cluttered
by too much
waste matter
things
such as
song lyrics
names
words
faces
all begin to disappear
soon, I will be left
with nothing.

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